it’s so easy to forget what you can do all by yourself when you have other people around you.

30 Nov

because the more you rely on others, the less you rely on yourself, and your dependence on others grows….then you start feeling worthless because you feel like you can’t do anything by yourself and you have to rely on others for everything. the more of other people you pay attention to in your life, the less you know about yourself. you forget things. your “self” disappears slowly. it’s so easy to get hooked to something, and while you’re addicted, you say you can’t do anything without it, or you can’t stop using it. but seriously, try getting rid of it. it may be the best thing you’ve done, and it’ll be such a relief to you, and you’ll start finding yourself again. it’ll help you sort out your life and priorities.

so you have to leave or distance yourself from the people you attach yourself to, those who distract you, in order to rediscover things you can do on your own perfectly fine. you don’t need to follow others and the way they do things. don’t let yourself be influenced by the way other people live their lives, because although in doing things that way, it may work out perfectly for them, you may not get the same/expected results. it’s better to just carve a road out for yourself, and not cross over it into other people’s territory or roads/way they do things, and just focus on your own. because only you really know inside what it is that you want and what you need to do. YOU know, not other people. they carve themselves roads toward where they want to get, it’s not like you can follow them and suddenly get to the place you want to get if the road you use leads somewhere else in the first place. you can watch other people and find their paths interesting, but don’t stray from your own, if you know it’s good for you. other people have their own paths. you also have your own. don’t follow in someone else’s footsteps because it’ll mess you up. you’ll follow it for a while, then you’ll get lost or stuck, and it’ll be a pain to get back. in this society, things we do are overrated. staying connected and watching and thinking about other people is overrated. what other people are doing, what they think, where they are — it’s as if there’s going to suddenly be tons of “stalking syndromes” coming out. people who don’t care what they themselves are doing, but they need to know what other people are doing. that’s the only way they get their life, the only way they feel alive and connected to other people — by an impersonal telling of someone else’s tales or things they are doing right at the moment. seriously, if you know what someone else is doing or laughing at or watching or going or playing or singing or listening to or whatever, will you become friends? it’s ridiculous how much time we spend nowadays thinking about things or looking up things that have absolutely no relevance to our lives or news around the world or other things that can educate us or that we can relate to. you think by facebook stalking someone, you’ll become their friend? that the more you know about them — their favorite color or book, you’ll be able to form a close relationship with them? what about something more than that then — what about love? you think you can love via instant messaging? ask someone out, get to know them, via something so impersonal, irrelateable, and shallow? can you tell their expressions and feelings — can you see through the computer or chat box or email to their hearts or facial expressions? …seriously?! this is also why i hate the idea of texting so much. okay, asking ur mom to pick you up from school at 4 instead of 3 is something different. those are impersonal messages anyway. but people who communicate full-time with an impersonal, shallow conversation, that’s terrible. is that life? is that interaction? there’s no more interaction between texts than things like CleverBot or Siri.

i really went on a tangent about all that internet/social media stuff. and this next thing may be off topic but…i really don’t feel like connecting separate thoughts right now. so bear with me 😛

Maybe I’m too innocent, simple-minded, idealistic, and naive, but life would be so much better if we knew what other people were thinking about us and judging us about, so we could just change or improve our characters and actions for the better instead of being ignorant and all of a sudden finding oneself in a very big, dark pit that you didn’t even know you dug for yourself.


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